On Fear:10/21
From the journal: Oct. 2021
You can’t let your fear outpace your love, no, you can’t. Fear is a confirmation of life, a testament, a loud echo in the chamber of existence. I am so afraid, yes, so afraid because I want to live fully, to embrace the vastness of life, to dive deep into its depths. The fear is there, it is present, it is real, and it is not to be dismissed. I feel it, I know it, I breathe it in like the air that fills my lungs.
Fear and love, they are companions in this journey, intertwined, dancing together in a delicate waltz. When fear rises, love must rise higher, must stand taller, must shout louder. It is not enough to let fear dictate the rhythm of our days. No, we must let love lead, let love take the forefront, let it be the melody that guides us through the uncertainty.
I am afraid, yes, afraid of the unknown, afraid of the rejection, afraid of the heartbreak, but that fear is rooted in my desire to live, to experience, to feel every emotion in its rawest form. I want to touch the sky and feel the earth beneath my feet, to taste the sweetness of joy and the bitterness of sorrow. The fear is a reminder that I am alive, that I am here, that I am part of this grand tapestry of existence.
Living fully means embracing the fear, acknowledging it, but not allowing it to overshadow the love that fuels my spirit. Love is the force that propels me forward, that ignites the fire within. It is the reason I create, the reason I connect, the reason I reach out to others. Love is expansive, love is freeing, love is the light that pierces through the darkness of fear.
So, I must remember, I must always remember, that while fear may rise, love must soar higher. Fear may whisper in my ear, telling me to retreat, to hold back, to stay safe, but love shouts, love urges, love beckons. I want to live fully, to dive into the depths of this life, and that means embracing the fear, yes, but also choosing love, always choosing love.
In this dance of fear and love, I find my balance, I find my truth. I let fear be a part of me, a reminder of my humanity, but I do not let it define me. I let love define me, let it shape my choices, let it guide my heart. And in that choice, I find freedom, I find strength, I find the courage to live fully, fear and all.
