Embrace The Darkness: 10/23
From the journal: October 2023
The creative process is like going for a midnight walk in a dark forest with a flashlight and no map. The air is thick with the scent of damp earth, the kind of darkness that seeps into your bones, making your heart pound with the rhythm of uncertainty. The beam of light flickers, illuminating patches of reality, but the shadows loom larger, whispering secrets of the unknown. I clutch the flashlight like a lifeline, yet I cannot see the end from the beginning.
At times, I feel lost, a drifting specter in this abyss of thought, frustration creeping in like a chill, threatening to extinguish the fragile flame of inspiration. The path ahead twists and turns, obscured by branches and brambles, each step echoing in the silence. Why must it be so hard? Why must the journey be fraught with such confusion? But in that confusion, in that disorientation, I find a strange comfort—an understanding that getting lost is part of the process.
I remind myself to let go, to surrender to the wandering. There is beauty in the aimlessness, a kind of liberation in allowing my thoughts to roam free, unencumbered by the weight of expectation. I can embrace the uncertainty, the chaos, and recognize that this is where creation breathes. I take a deep breath and allow myself to explore, to drift into the shadows, where the mysteries of my own mind await.
Wandering leads to wondering, and indeed, wondering leads to revelation. The questions rise like fog, swirling around me, beckoning me to delve deeper, to unearth the hidden gems buried beneath the surface. I realize that all art is a work in progress, just like me, a constant evolution, a reflection of the journey rather than the destination. I do not have to have it all figured out; I do not need to chart every course with precision.
The path is revealed as I stumble forward, one step at a time, each misstep a lesson, each hesitation a chance to pause and reflect. I am reminded that we are all making it up as we go, navigating this intricate labyrinth of existence with a flashlight and no map. We are all seekers, yearning for clarity in the obscurity, craving connection in the solitude.
So I embrace the darkness, the uncertainty, the wildness of the creative process. I allow myself to wander, to feel the pulse of the night, the heartbeat of the forest, the whispers of inspiration that beckon from the shadows. Each step is a testament to my resilience, my courage to confront the unknown, to embrace the journey in all its complexity.
In this midnight walk, I find not just the flicker of light, but the understanding that the dance between chaos and clarity is where the magic resides. The creative process is not a straight line, but a winding path, rich with discoveries waiting to unfold. And with each moment, I am reminded that I am not just a creator, but a wanderer, forever exploring the depths of my own existence.
